Fancy had her babies!  Two healthy kids, a girl and a boy, and Fancy is doing fine. And Sophie, goat-midwife extraordinaire, was just the best, staying right with Fancy the whole time.

Here she is in the beginning, sitting with Fancy through contractions, waving flies off of her, generally being a sweetie.

After an hour of that, things were getting a bit tiresome, though.  And another hour and I was starting to get worried.  Goat births are usually short, and this is Fancy’s second, so I was expecting things to go more quickly.  Finally, after three hours of mild-ish contractions (at least, she wasn’t showing much discomfort) she starting pushing.  Ah, that’s what we want to see, active labor!  That’s when the clock starts ticking with a goat.  Once active labor starts, you really need to have some kids, or at least be seeing a head, within half an hour or so, or something is wrong.

Next paragraph is a bit graphic, skip if you’d rather.  Anyway, 45 minutes later, nothing.  Oh, I did not want to ‘go in,’ as they call it, but oh well.  Time to find out why this was going so slowly.  Well, first thing that happened was I found one back leg.  Not good.  Not good at all.  I call out to Paul to call the vet, because I can’t find another leg, or a head.  Finally I pop the other sack in there, and that baby starts presenting properly, that is, nose sitting on two front hooves—it’s called ‘diving position’—yeah!  Cancel the vet!  So, that baby comes out (with some tugging) allowing the other one to swing around into position.  A few minutes later, the second one, the one with the previously mentioned back leg, arrived.  Six hours all together, oh my gosh, we were all exhausted.

Here is Sophie, such a trooper, cleaning off babies.  Fancy is licking and cleaning, too.  After her first kidding, she wanted nothing to do with the babies. This time, she went right to work.  Good Mama!

They’re getting all clean and shiny now!  A girl, white with black socks, and a boy, white with brown socks and a brown and white head.

A few hours later Luc came out to see them—he had been too nervous before, but he loved the babies at once, of course.

Yay!  No problems nursing.

Aren’t they adorable?

The main thing with baby goats is to spend a lot of time with them, so they get used to humans.  If they don’t get tamed in this way, they’ll be wild, and not want to be handled when they grow up.  Not good for a dairy goat.  Basically, you hang out with them, sitting for a long while, and let them come to you.  Pretty quickly they want to crawl all over you.  Enough of that and they’ll happily hang with humans the rest of their lives.  In my experience, boding with humans like this does not have to diminish the bond they have with their mom one bit.

I can’t commend Sophie enough for her assistance in all of this.  It matters not a bit that she is six years old.  She’s just a fantastic goat birth assistant, full stop.

But then when we went for a celebratory swim, we found Myrtle the Turtle floating in the pond near our dock, dead. We couldn’t tell anything about why she died, just that she had.  It was incredibly sad to see her like that. We were all upset. As we walked home, Luc said he wished he could forget about Myrtle completely, until I pointed out that then he would have to forget how beautiful she was when she swam, how curious she was about him, watching him from the water for long minutes at a time, and how she had made him laugh.  After a moment, he agreed, he didn’t want to forget those things.  “I think she was a very old turtle, because she was a very big creature.  I think she died from being old.”  I hope he’s right.

When we got home, Luc built several green Myrtles out of legos, giving one to each of us, “in case we were feeling sad about Myrtle dying.”   Then later that night, we were listening to Satie’s Gymnopedie, a slow, graceful piece of piano music (it came up on the ipod shuffle), and Luc said it was sad music, and made him think of Myrtle.  I agree, to the sad part, but even more, the way she looked when she moved through the water.  I asked him if he wanted me to change it, and he thought about it, then said no.  I guess he was doing all right with remembering her by then.

I asked Paul to move Myrtle’s body.  He agreed, although grumbling a little, “I guess I have to handle the gross things?”

“Like putting your hand in Fancy’s private parts up to your wrist?”

Pause.

“I guess I have to handle some of the gross things.”

“Right.  I’ve got the births and you’ve got the deaths.”

“Right.”  And he trudges off to do turtle duty.

Marriage is built on these arrangements.

Good-bye, Myrtle. We’ll miss you.

And welcome, new, unnamed-as-of-yet baby goats!

It’s been a busy few days.

(And, in case you aren’t familiar with Satie, here is a youtube version. It’s a beautiful piece of music, and Luc’s right, it’s just right for Myrtle.)

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See those lines?  Those are the indentations a guitar string makes on one’s fingertips after a round of practice.  Doesn’t the photo angle of this make me look like I have weird distorted fingers???  Kind of freaky ain’t it?

Whoever thought it would be a good idea to mash steel wires down into wood with my delicate, innervated, flesh?  Idiot!  Moron!

Oh wait, was that me?

Urm.

I now know eight chords.  But changing between chords is hopeless. Hopeless I tell you! Why don’t I just stick with writing novels, for heaven’s sake?  Novels are so much easier!

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Episode 10 is LIVE. Raine and Joshua have adventures and the demon makes his offer.  I hope you like it!

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It has been so incredibly hot this week.  Heat index (whatever the fuck that means) of a hundred.  Today was a little better, but that only means we didn’t break the triple digits.  Hot.  Hot hot hot hot.

Only one thing to do.

Go swimming!

I’ve written before about our wonderful pond (for example here).  Oh, how I love our pond!  Every time I get in I congratulate Paul and I for buying land with a pond.  Pure geniuses!

But the pond is only one nifty swimming spot we’ve got.  We also have the creek.

Starting at the pond, at one end of our property, there is a little wet-weather creek thing that flows into this, the Big Creek (as we call it) that borders that back end of our property.  The Little Creek is sometimes a few feet across, sometimes just a mud slick, but the Big Creek is maybe ten or fifteen feet across and, depending on the rainfall, can be four feet deep in places.

Translation: plenty of water for small people to have a blast.

There’s even this sandy beach sort of area, perfect for someone to wade into the water, or to build a sand castle.  And a little further back in the picture, you can see where I like to hang out, this wonderfully shady area with a great view of the bend in the creek where the kids like to play, oh my heavens, it’s just a delightful spot.

This is the tree that forms the canopy over my spot—anyone know what kind it is?  The creek is to the right of the photo, down a slope.  Here’s what I see when I’m hanging out under this tree:

You can see how the beavers have been through here, felling trees across the creek, then moving on.  Bobos.  Here is back the other direction, to my left:

The kids splash and fool around—kids adore playing in water!—and even I wade in.  The main thing: it’s fun and we all get cool.  The last few days have been so hot we’ve been going to the creek in the early afternoon, and then the pond later on.

Thank goodness for swimming holes.  During a heat wave like this, a good swimming hole can save your life.

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So, duh, I just re-found the stats page over at libsyn (that’s the people that host the audio files for Conjuring Raine). As I mentioned before, I have well over a hundred subscribers (woo hoo!), but lots of people listen without subscribing. And now that I re-found that page, I’m realizing it’s a LOT of people. As in, 4500 downloads of the 9 episodes! So, maybe 500 people! Even accounting for a bunch of folks falling off, that is, if they start listening but it isn’t for them and so they don’t come back…that’s maybe 300-400 people listening to my book!

Pardon me while I go lie down.

THAT IS SO AMAZING!!!!!

Hello all you good people! Welcome to my brain!

Slight spoiler: I just recorded a sex scene—that’s right, Raine and Joshua get it on, aren’t you shocked? But here’s the thing—I managed NOT to titter and giggle like a school girl while I read it. So there! I’m like Peggy Hill trying to train herself to teach sex ed by saying pen is, as in, “The pen is mightier than the sword.” Pen…Is. Pen..Is. Pen.Is. Penis. Penis! There! I said it!

Typing this stuff is a heck of a lot different from SAYING IT OUTLOUD INTO A MIC. And reading it with gusto is, you know, a whole order of magnitude trickier.

But I did it, it’s in the can, stay tuned….

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It all started with this:

This is the ‘string bowl’ that Luc made.  He walked around the yard strumming and singing to himself for several days.  He just charms the heck out of me.  I told Paul about it and said if his Magical Mystery Manifestation superpower could get on the ball, maybe he could turn up some kind of stringed instrument for Luc that would push Luc’s troubadour tendencies to the next level.

The next day Paul came home from a yard sale with this:

This is a clunky sort of kid’s lap harp, but Luc loved it, it was exactly the next thing, with real strings and a sound like some Chinese instrument, what are they called, a pipa I think.  He played this for a few days until I, of course, broke it, trying to tune the strings (with a chromatic tuner app I got for my ipod because apple insinuates itself into every single thing I do.).  Paul’s ability to manifest is trumped only by my ability to break what he manifests.  It’s a rule.

So I bought Luc this:

It’s a 1/2 size guitar that I got for $30 bucks that has real strings and sounds decent enough not to set my teeth on edge.  Sophie likes the pretty red back.  Perhaps it was this shiny red that got Sophie’s attention.  Or perhaps it was just the escalation, but now she started picking it up and fooling around with it.  See in the picture, how she is playing a C chord?

Well, I started picking it up and fooling around with it, too.  At first just to try to show them the few bits that I know, like which way is up or how the sound of a string gets higher when you press it down against the fret board, that sort of ultra basic stuff.  But then I needed to learn how to tune it, which took me to youtube, and before you can say Kaki King we were all crowded around the computer watching “how to play guitar for beginners” videos.  Turns out there are TONS of them!  Now we were learning a few chords and a few strum patterns, Sophie alternating between pretend rock-out strumming frenzy (complete with faux picking) and quiet focus and determination, trying to get her little fingers to make the chords, pleased as punch when she got it right.  Luc, never one to tackle something head on, gradually worked new tricks into his long, experimental, improvisational pieces. often played first thing in the morning, with the guitar flat on his lap so he can see the strings, and mostly when he thinks no one is paying attention.  He’s a private little guy.

Meanwhile, I got more and more into finally understanding how the heck a guitar works.  See, I’m a piano player.  You press a key, you get a note.  I’ve long admired finger style guitar, and love listening to it, but it has been a mystery to me how you get all that music out of six strings.  Now, with the help of youtube, I was starting to understand.  Maybe, whispered a little voice in my head as I crunched my long piano fingers in on the 1/2 size guitar frets, maybe I could learn that finger picking stuff after all.

But I’m a piano player!  I started playing piano the first time when I was about eight or nine, for heaven’s sake.  I can’t learn guitar!  It’s too hard, anyway.  I took piano lessons on and off into my twenties.  I played classical and blues, plus assorted this and that.  What I loved were pretty, emotional pieces, like Debussy, or more the contemporary George Winston or Phillip Glass.  I’ve often felt like the culmination of my piano playing life was a year in my early twenties when I played Clair De Lune every day, month after month.  It was like a meditation. But it’s all been musically downhill since then. I can’t start something new now.

Here is my piano:

It’s like a shrine.  The photo in the middle is one my cousin took, of my hands playing a baby grand my then-boyfriend had. I was maybe eighteen or nineteen, nearing the height of my piano powers.  The top is covered with pictures of my family.  I love my piano!  And I still play sometimes, my muscle memory allowing miracles to emerge from my fingers that I have no conscious ability to duplicate.  But it’s mostly a lost art to me.

But here I am, getting all into an entirely new instrument.  Because, honestly, after a few days, who was spending the most time on the little guitar?  Me.  I think my piano is feeling seriously cheated on.

Long story short: I went and bought myself a full sized guitar yesterday.

Isn’t it pretty???  I’m so excited!  It sounds like butter, just beautiful, rich and gorgeous.  You strum it and it rings for days.  It makes me wonder if, maybe, maybe, I could ever play those beautiful finger style songs, ever, you know, like in a million years?  The guy who sold it to me could play amazing stuff, and he said he’d been playing for fifteen years.  I thought, if I played for fifteen years, could I do what he can do?  That would be so cool. But then I thought, in fifteen years I’ll be almost 55.  Can a woman of, um, certain age play guitar?  Am I too old for this project?  Are there any old women guitarists?  (Oddly I can think of loads of old men guitarists, but few old biddies, what’s up with that?)  Not that such speculations stop me!  Maybe all the yoga will keep me young….

Tonight, Sophie and I learned two new chords, her on the little guitar, me on my new gorgeous guitar.  I’m telling you, we were rocking out!  Holy cow, the yurt was hopping, us with our three or four chords and one strum pattern, so pleased with our little selves, grinning like idiots about our tiny accomplishments.  Luc drew pictures off to the side, but I’m interested to hear what he plays tomorrow morning as we’re all waking up, because I know he was paying close attention to everything we were doing.  That’s his way.

So, here we have our new adventure for this summer.  To go with all the swimming, I mean.  We’ll learn us some guitar, that’s what we’ll do!  So far it’s great.

Except for the swollen, tender fingertips, that is.  Ouch.

And I’ll leave you with the mind blowing, previously mentioned, Kaki King.  She does this stuff, I think it’s called slapping, or maybe air tapping, I’ve heard both. She’s amazing, if you ask me. I showed this video to Luc and halfway through he literally ran to his guitar, in a frenzy to try it for himself. “Don’t you want to see the whole thing?” I called, but no answer, just music.

Take it away, Ms. King!

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Episode 09 of Conjuring Raine is LIVE.  Number 09 marks the halfway point—wow I can’t believe how quickly we got here!  Nine more episodes to go….

And hey, I noticed today that Raine is #2 on the most popular, top 10 most-downloaded-this-month, list!  Wow!  I am thrilled!

Click here for the podiobooks Conjuring Raine site to listen or subscribe, or here for my Raine site where you can do the same.  Enjoy!

(I just remembered that I dreamed last night that I suddenly realized I had written two books with a main character named Rain/e and I was feeling all embarrassed about it.  What the heck does THAT mean?)

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Fancy, one of our goats, is due to have kids any day now.  She is HUGE.

In case you can’t see it, take a look at her from the front.

Poor baby can barely walk.  Her belly bulges out on either side like a Frank Lloyd Wright house, cantilevered, defying gravity.

I remember that feeling.

A friend of mine just had her second baby (Welcome Eamon! Congratulations Hannah!).  She sent me some pictures of herself, taken a few weeks ago, big as a planet and lovely.  How do we do it?  It’s so ridiculous!

I remember, too, those last days of waiting are full of nothing but thoughts about the coming baby.  If it rains you think, will I have the baby in the rain?  If you eat a sandwich you think, will this be the last thing I eat before I have this baby?  Every twinge, every discomfort—is this the start of labor?

I wonder if Fancy is considering any of these questions?  I doubt it.  This will be her second kidding—that’s what they call it in the goat world.  I like it, as if pregnancy is just a big joke.  (Which it is.)  Just kidding!  Fancy was raised away from her own Momma, which is, perhaps, why she had NO IDEA what was going on with her first kids.  I think she probably thought, Well! That was the biggest, weirdest poop I ever had! Took her awhile to figure out that the babies now on the hay around her, had anything to do with her at all.  Maybe this time she’ll be more clued in.  I hope?

My grandmother told me once that, heading into the hospital, seventeen and in labor with her first—this was the 1940s and she was married but it was a different time—she had no idea how the baby was going to come out.  Seriously!  She said she finally decided, waiting on the gurney for the doctor to arrive, that it must be through her mouth, because that was the only opening she figured big enough for a baby to fit through.  She also said she had spent the last two months locked up in the sweltering house, wishing she could go outside and be in the breeze (no air conditioning back then) but she couldn’t because she was pregnant.  Huh? I said.  Back then, she explained, pregnant ladies didn’t go about, being seen.  It wasn’t proper.  “I was in my confinement,” she said.  “It just wasn’t spoken of.  Things were different then.”

No kidding!

(Ar, ar, ar.)

Poor Fancy is in her confinement, too.  Confined to the ground and a small circle around the hay bin.  She can’t get up on the milking stand to eat her grains anymore so we feed her by hand.  I keep going out to check on her—mostly she lies in the dirt, her little legs sticking out from her belly like she’s a bug on it’s back—but no signs yet.  If you put your hand on her sides, you can feel small hooves and heads moving around in there, fighting for space.  How many has she got in there? We’ll find out soon.

But for now, the waiting.

Emmie, one of the last babies to be born to another of our goats, has no idea that anything is up.  She spends her days springing off the sides of the goat barn (she’s going to tear it down one of these days, I just know it) and playing with her friend Mochi.  Mochi tries to attack and scratch, that’s playing to a cat, and Emmie tries to butt.  Somehow, they get along great.

I wonder what Emmie’ll think of the kids?

See, now I’m doing it and they aren’t even my babies coming.  Stay tuned for a birth report.  Wish Fancy luck and an easy labor….

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When did my ipod take over my life?  From first waking (I use it as an alarm clock, because why wake to anything other than a faint Tibetan Bell-sound-of-my-choice? ) to late night reading (an ipod comes with it’s own, adjustable brightness, reading light, and you can easily hold it, and turn pages, with one hand, not to mention it has a bunch of books on it so I don’t have to get up to get the book I want—it’s the perfect nighttime reading device) my ipod is in use around here on-and-off, 24/7.  But hands-down, the number one user around here is not me.  It’s the kids.  Honestly, it’s hard to imagine a more useful parenting tool.  Besides just, you know, being a kinder person.

Some examples:

  • We’re out in the woods, the kids are having a great time, I’m starting to get bored…whip out the ipod and read. Or listen to a podcast of which I have many backlogged.  Kids get to stay longer and I’m not pulling my hair.  Win!
  • We go out to eat and the food is taking forever to arrive.  To the ipod!  A game of Animal Match or Blow Fish among the group of us, passing it around taking turns, and everyone is happy again.  The food arrives before you know it!
  • Actually, any situation involving waiting, a nightmare with bored little kids,  is improved by the addition of a well stocked ipod.  It’s boredom busting per square inch power is unbeatable.
  • Here’s a good one: we’re in the car for too long, one of the kids is getting agitated, give them the ipod!  They listen to some music or a book and calm right down.  Sophie, who gets carsick easily when looking at a screen or a book, especially likes to listen to books in the car. Car rides and ipods are a perfect combination.
  • I mentioned reading at night but wake up in the middle of the night, kids wedged in on both sides of me, and the ipod becomes even more useful. I can’t sleep, but I can’t get up or I’ll wake them up.  The horror!  Instead, reach overhead, grab the ipod.   Silent, dim, quiet, it’s perfect for not waking your sleeping companion(s).
  • Here’s a huge one: we’re going about our lives and a question pops up: do mosquitoes have ears?  What’s the biggest snake in the world?  What’s playing at the theater down the street?  What’s the weather supposed to be later?  What was the story of the Green Knight?  This must happen a gazillion times a day.  Ta Da!  Ipod provides the answer in seconds, as we have a nice wi-fi field around the yurt that goes right on out into the yard and the Noah House.
  • Speaking of wi-fi, our favorite grocery store has wi-fi and the other day we were shopping and decided on the fly to make some pesto—but what goes in it?  Ipod + internet dished us up a recipe in a second.  Not to mention my grocery list, also on the ipod, that the kids add to.  Jelly beans!  Apple juice!  Mac and cheese!  Ah, the staples of a kid diet.
  • Or this one: yesterday, Luc woke up particularly early and couldn’t sleep, but I wasn’t ready to get up (one of my rare non-getting-up-to-write mornings and he decides to wake up early, why? why?) so I gave him some headphones and his favorite movie and he quietly and happily watched Land Before Time, snuggled in beside me, while I slept another hour.  Bliss!

I could go on and on.  Either for my needs or theirs, our ipod is an essential item around here.  I can honestly think of no downside to the kids.  They use the ipod as a tool for fun, intuitively and indiscriminately.  They also spend loads of time running around in the woods, playing with goats, swimming, visiting friends, making things—it’s a full life.  Enhanced by the addition of quickly available, colorful, interactive, games, books, movies, and music.  All kept, ready-at-a-moments-notice, in my pocket.

We don’t have an ipad at the moment, but I imagine we’ll get one of the later generation ones.  Touchscreens are instantly accessible to a small person and a bigger screen will be even better for various things, for example, drawing, something the kids love to do on the ipod  Also, more two player games.  Perfect!  I have two kids!  Plus, books with pictures, comics, and watching movies, etc. etc.  Not pocket-size, but I imagine it as an around the yurt, in the car, item more than a carry-it-always item. Both, not either/or.  As homeschoolers, particularly, I think an ipad will be a wonderful device.

When I remember how bored I was so much of the time as a kid…this painful, grueling boredom.  Man, I would have LOVED an ipod!  So many games and stories, so much art to make, so much delight, all wrapped up in one toy.

It’s a good time to be a kid, if you ask me.

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There is a mountain of sand in North Carolina that trumps all other Eastern USA sand mountains, and then some.  And we went there last weekend.

What, you’ve never heard of Jockey’s Ridge?  I know, I know, the name sounds like something yucky, some kind of guy’s personal problem.  But no, it’s this totally cool, 100 foot tall sand dune on the Outer Banks, and it’s really pretty, and wild, and like another planet.

Here is Sophie rapidly climbing the first of the three peaks.  Of course she is in the front of the line, right?

Here is Luc (closest), cousin Caleb (middle), and Sophie (way out front, where else) climbing the second peak:

See, doesn’t that look like another planet?

And, okay, here is what you see on the other side of that peak, a more familiar, beachy, view.

Something about Jockey’s Ridge calls out the dare devil in people.  You probably can’t see those tiny dots over the water there, but it’s a mess of parasailers.  And here are the hang gliders on the dune as you look back from where you’d be standing in that third pic:

And, of course there is the rolling and running down the incredibly steep 100 feet of sand.  Exhilarating!  Like you’re going to fall for sure, only you don’t, the silky sand catches you every time.  And no photo, sorry, I was too busy running and screaming to take a picture of that.

But you get up there and the constant wind blows through you, and the brilliant sun makes everything clear and sharp, and the colors are perfect, and everyone, everyone is smiling.

Yes, that’s me, for some reason wearing a large red outfit that I feel certain is visible from outer space.  What was I thinking?  But anyway, don’t I look happy?  It’s something about the (first half) of climbing that dune, the Living Dune they call it, that wakes you up.  And it seems to affect everyone.

Here is a terrific picture of Sophie showing you what I mean:

She looks so powerful and happy!  You climb to the top and you look around and you feel alive.

I’m serious, lives are re-thought, plans hatched, visions shaken and stirred up there.  It’s a place to go to get out of your life for a few minutes.  I guess that’s why we make the effort of going to places like this.  Even if only for an hour or so, the brilliant light makes all things seem clear.

Aaaaaand then the heat hits.

The brightness becomes blinding.  The blowing sand gets in your eyes, and your teeth, and your bum crack.  And suddenly, it is imperative that you get the heck out of there, right now.

This is especially true if you are four years old.

One of my earliest memories is climbing Jockey’s Ridge with my Dad when I was about Luc’s age.  I remember the work of the climb, the exhilaration of getting to the top, the wild view, and the thrill of running back down on my stubby legs. And I remember the exhaustion and the tears and the having to be carried out like a sack of potatoes.  I think it’s like a rite of passage all Eastern North Carolina kids have to go through.

This time was Luc’s turn.  Poor little guy had a terrific time until, boom, the downside of the adventure hit.  Like me, thirty-five years ago, he had to be evac-ed out.

He was practically whimpering in this photo.

But I carried him out, got him into the blessed air conditioning of the visitor’s center, and after a bottle of wet stuff, and smashing a penny in the penny smasher, he was back to full Luc strength.

You go, even knowing that it isn’t Jockey’s Ridge if it doesn’t end in tears.  I don’t know why, but you do.  And it’s still good.  That memory of climbing Jockey’s Ridge with my Dad is a great memory for me, despite the melt-down at the end.  Isn’t that weird?

It was interesting remembering being my four-year-old self carried out, while being my current adult self, doing the carrying this time, of my four year old kiddo, in the exact same landscape.  Like time travel.

But really, the first 70% is awesome.  It’s why all those dare-devils congregate up there with their power kites and dune surfing and the like.  The high is worth it.

You should go!

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