a break from yoga?

I feel deeply ambivalent about this, but I think I’m going to take some time off my yoga practice.  It seems incredibly stupid, since I just moved so deeply into several of the postures, and I’m sure any time off will cause me to lose that progress.  But I’m just so tired.  I don’t know if it is allergies, depression, over-doing, a combination…I don’t know. But if I think of taking even a week off from yoga I feel such relief.  So that’s the (terrifying) plan.  One week off.

Guilt!  This isn’t in accordance with my larger goals!  I’m going to seize up!  What am I thinking?  Maybe I can just sneak in a little? The task master that gets me on the mat every day is profoundly unhappy with this plan.

I’ve just been cramming too much into my days.  I’m pooped. I need a break.  It’s just one week, for crying out loud.  Relax.

But what if I can’t start back?  What if it HURTS when I start back?  What if I lose my power to get on the mat or damage it in some way?  What if this gets me off track for years?  I’m 41, I can’t take years off!  Maybe I’ll go get on the mat right now….

This isn’t going to be easy.