Sometimes, often in the first 100 pages of a first draft, the story soars along, and each night firing up the laptop is like tuning into a brand new episode of a favorite show. What will happen next? The characters phone in and dish. I sit, watch, and eat snacks. It’s awesome.
At other times, there is a sense of hard work. Of straining under a load to get a few hundred words. They’re good words, it’s a good time, but it is slow going. I’m a mason, building a stone wall, one heavy-ass rock at a time.
Then there are the times when a doom settles in. That is when I know the truth: this is unequivocally the worst shite I have ever written–no, the worst shite ever written in the history of writing. Okay, maybe not that bad, but definitely crap. Total and utter crap. Maybe I’m not a writer after all. Why bother? Who cares?
Luckily, I did that last month. This month, I’m having a period of “this is the Best Thing I Have Ever Written.” Knots that have been tangled for years are unwinding themselves. Revelations appear. Solutions come to me in dreams. I walk through thickets of roses, wonder-struck as they part before me.
It is a most dangerous time.
Grandiosity and fantasies of fame and wealth can suck up creativity and writing time. Ten minutes thinking about how I’ll spend my book advance is ten minutes of creative juice I haven’t put into the novel. However, it can be a wonderful time, if sandtraps are avoided, because so much work can get done. Get it while it’s hot! The muse is riding me and I pray for endurance, and humility, and enough time to get as many pages down as possible.
Anyway, it’s a hell of a lot more fun then the times when, as an alternative to opening the work-in-progress file, I would rather pour gasoline on myself and strike a match.
What an insane activity that produces all of this drama! It’s silly, really. And what is REALLY silly is how compelling all these thoughts are.
There are brief moments of semi-clarity, or, at least, a bit of distance from the roller coaster. In those moments I can see that, yes, I’m in that part of the writing now, where I hate myself, my characters, and god. Or, yes, I’m in that part of the writing now, where I love it, it’s easy, everything is shiny. These things pass. Just sit down, butt-in-chair, and do the work. It’s kind of zen, really. Zen on crack.
Buy my books!
Children of the Fallen, now available on Amazon.
The haunted and talented children of the glorious and terrifying...
Toby Streams the Universe at amazon.
A psychic in the big city, trying to stay sane....
The Violin Maker's Wife at amazon.
Enchanted violins can be deadly....
A girl, her vampire, his demon...
You can also listen to the Conjuring Raine free podcast. Enjoy!
coming next: The Lucidity EffectLucidity is now with the editor, woo hoo!
today's yoga practice
upcoming book releases
a few greatest hits
- flying kids
- the way of the bento
- diggers watch tv, too
- cool felt picture fun for kiddos
- unexpected benefit of living in a round house #27
- 2 stories, 1 joke, and a song
- the emotional insanity of writing
- lucille ball moment
- crafts for karma
- the power of mom’s day can melt even the most bitter of hearts, not that my heart is bitter, but it has gotten a bit crusty around the edges
- welcome to mayaland's virtual macabre crawfish feast of death!
- living the tie-dyed life
- writing without pencil sharpening
- happy birthday, sophie!
- remains of the play
- bad things come in threes. or fours. (or maybe fives?)
- triple chocolate pudding goop, or, this way lies madness
- the yip-yips do not cause childhood obesity
- yurts: the downside
- go, go, godzilla!
- "Dusi's Wings" April, 2003. . . . "One thing fantasy can do for us is to give shape to the mysterious in the world; another is to make emotional yearning concrete. The early sections of "Dusi's Wings" do just that...there was a strong grasping towards the spiritual in fantasy here that was very promising, and I look forward to reading more by Lassiter." --review, Tangent Online.
tagsadventures alternative building art author interviews on creative process backbends Bees birthday book covers cats chickens Conjuring Raine creative process family featured funny kid moments geeklife goat milk goats guitar halloween Henry injury ipod Luc manga movies Noah house play podcast podiobooks radical unschooling recipes recycled building supplies seasons Sophie swimming television tie-dye tiny houses toys Unschooling video games yoga yurt raising yurts
- maya on ashtanga injuries: toe edition. (In a word, gross. Don’t even read this post. Seriously.)
- Frances@Lila on ashtanga injuries: toe edition. (In a word, gross. Don’t even read this post. Seriously.)
- grimmly on ashtanga injuries: toe edition. (In a word, gross. Don’t even read this post. Seriously.)
- Shannon on strawberry fest 2013!
- maya on strawberry fest 2013!